can't sleep

i thought i can have lala land party where i can sleep and dream all i can. i think the party would be a little bit later..

i am too tired to sleep...

so i decided to do something beneficial.. well, maybe

i opened up my facebook account, update all my games. done.

opened his account and updated his game. done.

opened back to my account and click on the game requests. total of 94.

cold sweat.. with this kind of internet connection i am never going to complete all game requests hahaha

then another idea. removing friends from lists. removed few.. unsure.. bored.

turned on television.. nothing attracts me. turned it off.

tried to play the guitar.. my fingers still painful. put the baby down.

so i blogged.

then maybe after this i will make myself a cup of warm milk..
then lie on my bed, kiss Vanilla and Bebear good night,
start my 'what ifs' in my brain and try to sleep out of it..

sounds good =)

good night, world. sleep tight

3rd semester, DONE

3rd semester done, praise the Lord =)

3 more semesters to go.. oh can i just get married? hahaha

by all means, run.

LOVE and MARRIAGE

read something i like tonight =)

LOVE and MARRIAGE .. What is It..?

A student asks a teacher: What is love?

The teacher said: In order to answer your question, go to the paddy field and choose the biggest paddy and come back.But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick.

The student went to the field, went through the first row, saw one big paddy, but he wonders....."Maybe there is a bigger one later."
Then he saw a bigger one... but maybe there is an even bigger one waiting for him. Later, when he finished more than half of the paddy field, he realized that the paddy is not as big as the previous one he saw. He knew he has missed the biggest one, and is full of regrets. So, he ended up going back to the teacher empty handed.

The teacher told him, this is love... you keep looking for a better one, but when later you realize, you have already missed the person.

The student asked: What is marriage then?

The teacher said: In order to answer your question, go to the corn field and choose the biggest corn and come back. But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick.

The student went to the corn field, and this time he is careful not to repeat the previous mistake. When he reached the middle of the field, he has picked one medium corn that he feels satisfied with, and came back to the teacher.

The teacher told him, "This time as you bring back a corn, you looked for one that is just nice, and you have faith and believe this is the best one you get. This is marriage. 

surgery date- 17th December 2010

seize time, please

to be honest, i am not looking forward for holidays.. while there are things i wanted to do all along, like bakings and slacking at home.. there are more things that i am not prepared to do.

many changes may come, many that i might not be able to handle, many i must crawl slowly to get through, but i know theres always a silver lining in every cloud.

i pray that God is with us all along the days ahead. i seriously can't move on without His grace and blessings. and i cast all my cares to Him, because He truly cares

the first person i think of every morning and the last person when i close my eyes to sleep at night -is still you

Departed Love

dear Grandpa,

2o years had passed. we still missed you dearly. you were a legend, a leader, a father, a brother, a friend for those lives you had touch, and also..you were my dearest grandpa.

you left when i was 2 weeks old, and in those shortest time we meet, though i can't remember anything as a baby, you made the best earliest memory for the two of us. mum and dad told me that you visited me when i was born. you held me dearly in your arms. and you gave dad RM10 to open a bank account for me. with that money i already had my own bank account, and had saved enough for my education, my future. thank you so much grandpa!

you must have been a great person before we meet. all these while i only hear good things about you, grandpa. you were brave, kind, sweet, and loving. every day in the dawn you would start your day praying for every members of the family. how i wish i can be like you..

proud at the fact that you are my grandpa =)



dear Grandma,

it hasn't been long since you left. i missed talking to you while we sit on the front porch. i miss walking to the store with you. i miss the sound of your walking cane thumping on the floor as you walk. i miss your cooking, i miss your angry voice.i miss your laugh. i miss everything about you.

i am sorry i was not there for your funeral. i was far away from home and was having midterm examinations when mum told me the news. how i wish i can help out, and paid my last respect to you, grandma.

love you, grandma =)



dear Aunt Theresa,

whenever i think of you, i smile. all there is are good memories with you. i often feel lonely when i came back to the village but i know who to look for those times. look for you. you would talk and try explaining with everything you could to get me understand what you are up to. and you are willing to play ball with me, regardless to big your age was and how tired you can be. thanks for all the good times.

i am sorry, too.. for not attending your funeral. i was still away from home.

aunt Theresa, i miss you =)


love,
Cecelia