I stared into her eyes. I forced a smile, but I wasn't able to convince her that I am fine.
I walked away from what I thought was my happiness.
I know I am doing the right thing by moving on.. But like everyone else, it wasn't that easy.
Mum continued,
"is everything alright?"
I wasn't able to answer her. Tears running faster because I know, mum is hurt to see me hurting silently. I hugged her tight. No words were uttered. Just her warmth which calmed me down.
I spent sleepless nights, and I wander around during the day. I drove to nowhere in the middle of the night, and I walked in the rain just to get some peace at heart. I failed to love myself those days. This face seems to be unable to smile.
That was 8 months ago.
I was on the phone with mum a while ago.
She said she missed me, but I missed her more ;)
she went on,
"I prayed everyday that God accompany you in every trials, and I know now He heard my prayers. I am so proud to have you as my daughter, being so young, yet so strong."
ma, you know me better than I know myself.
I love you, ma.
