too many things going on lately and i have a fear of giving myself in. because if i do, i will crash... for now, i must be strong to go through all of these!
bob is having his working leave because of his chicken pox. half-hearted to be at home because i fear that i might get infected by him.
mum is not in a good condition. she went for medical check-up and turns out everything was high: blood pressure high, sugar-level high, cholesterol level high... now she constantly has bad headaches and some flu going on. she almost had stroke last wednesday which really made me kam chiong.. her urine test was not good too... God knows what it means and i only pray that she will be fine... i trust the medical officers and that mum is at best hands always.
grandma also not in good condition. she had bad gastric i believe, and that eventually leads to pneumonia and she was rushed to emergency unit and had to stay at ward for a night. when i visit her she can barely breath... why all of these happen when i am having my final exam in a week time..?
then comes to my problem. carry marks are out and i got the sudden jitters and nervousness when i see them. initially i was wondering where did i done wrong but then i give up wondering.. life is as it is: unfair. so be it. i shall live with my carry marks, and be happy with it. with that carry marks, i should try harder in my exams.. end of misery number one =)
another problem: supervisor for my final year project. i approached to someone but it turns out that we are not eye to eye. i feel rejected, i still do. everyone else already have their supervisor booked but i am still lost. oh well, someday i will get me a supervisor and give my hell best to him or her for my final year project. watch me shine!!
and there are tonnes of other personal problems that i am reluctant to tell.. i don't even want to admit to myself that i have these problems. for now, there is no time for self-pity.. must just go on..
all these shall pass. yes, they shall pass =)
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