solitary moments

i hate doing things on my own, at night, without anyone else with me.

i hate driving alone in the car.

i hate doing assignments until late at night where everyone is fast asleep.

i hate staring on the wall from my bed and trying to sleep.

i hate walking alone even with my earphone on.

i hate it when i shouldn't let anyone know what is playing in my head.

there are just too many to keep, and i felt the weight in my heart.

and to silence the pain,

all i do is to keep myself busy.

i don't mind spending sleepless nights,

and continue the day with a fatigue body,

because that is when i am least interested to get myself into trouble.

and by keeping on, i felt relieved.

the only worry is when this body stops, mind demotivated, and me actually giving up.

i wouldn't give up. i shouldn't give up.

let's just do the best, cc... there won't be any regret later.