holiday so far

so far, so good =)

i am currently working as a all time driver, part time housewife, day time cook, and full time daughter to annoy mum and dad at home

and am enjoying cooking like never. i would imitate the chefs on tv, chopping while explaining the ingredients i am using for the cooking. haha the beauty of being alone at home, i am free to talk to myself *crazy.. yesh.. X)







then went to yum cha with old friends from primary school.. i terribly missed them. everyone had grown up to be a young lady and gentlemen already =) more pretty, more handsome, and more graceful.

so very different from primary school days, or even secondary school days! it makes me wonder, how far already have i grown up? how much did i change? how mature is my thinking? how different i am from when i was in primary or secondary school?



maybe i changed a little, then maybe, a lot.. some of my relatives cannot recognize me when i visit. somehow i feel a little bit depressed to be treated like a stranger.. but then i find the beauty in it too.

see, earlier i said i read about our words are like prayers. few years back, i often wanted to go somewhere where nobody knows me. i somehow found that place, right here in my hometown.

walking along the streets alone, i saw friends' mothers and familiar faces. i smiled at them, but all i get is ignorant. haha.. no heart feelings =)

but then when walking with my mum, people in the market would ask if i am Cecelia. yesh, i am her.. long time no see! =)

i like the feeling of not being known by anyone. not to say i am anti-social, i hang out a lot to be in that category, but somehow i love to be peaceful. i treasure people i know... but if i could show you, if you are able to take a glimpse in my past life, you know what i mean when i say i prefer not to be recognized.

right.. let's move on to what i did so far during holiday. pengilan! pengilan is s sarawakian malay language, means wedding reception. didn't attend much of pengilan, mum and dad is super busy with work and farm.. juggling here and there, i pity them sometimes.

i did attend my cousin's wedding though. great food and great companions.. great drinking session! *i didn't sip a beer.. elected as driver last minute X)

i was sitting the same table with all my cousins. and when cousins get together... its berry merry!!

half the holiday is over, half the fun is over.. but they say things will be much better in the end, so i believe it will be more fun for my every tomorrows!

ah.. should hit the bed soon. my insomnia is getting worser each day, mum starts to worry

goodnight and sleep tight =)