the silence we had between me and you, made a tremendous confusion to me.
my mind tells me we have known each other very well, and there is no need to say much.
but my heart says we might be growing apart, each moment that comes by.
there are days that i am convinced i can get through this some how.
when i see cuddling couples,
happily married people,
people who settled down right,
men who had loved for infinite years,
girls who had found their prince charming,
they give it all away, give it all up...
and so for those moment, i was wondering:
what am i fighting for, exactly?
in a battle that i have already lost in the first place.
you are never going to come back, i know this.
and all these while i am trying hard to put up a poker face.
i must never show my affection to you.
i must never seek you when i needed you the most.
i must never say the words out.
i must never let you see how things are broken.
i must let you see the brighter side of me.
life has got to be more than this.
if i cannot come home to you,
then i probably should set foot outside and move.
move on until i feel tired, and only tired alone.
that i can eventually close my eyes to sleep.
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