you linger

even if in years to come, you still will linger in my life.

i know you will not be here, any more. no matter how hard i wished for you to be here.

so what i did is to place the things that carry your memories around me.


like the teddy i place in my car.

you will probably never set foot into my car.

but i feel safe with you.

so i put the teddy you gave in my car, next to me, to feel safe on the road.


like the cards i place on my wall.

you will probably never enter my room.

but i feel warm with you.

so i put the cards you sent on my wall, in front of me, to feel warm without your presence.


like the picture in my purse.

you will probably never going to open it any more.

but i feel happy with you.

so i put the picture in my purse, forever with me, to feel happy living life without you in the picture.


like the cd in my room.

you will probably never going to play music at my place any more.

but you were my music.

so i left the cd where you have placed it, in the cd player itself, as proof you were here once upon a time ago.


like the memories in my head.

you will probably never make any more memories with me in the future any more.

but you were everything.

so i flashbacks to those memories, in my head, to let me know i had loved and be loved.


like the places we have been to.

you will probably never take me to those places any more.

but i like walking with you.

so i go back to those places, killing my own time.


so even if i have changed much and being far away from you, i still think i am living in the past.


like this post that is about you.

you will probably don't give a damn in reading it any more.

but i like when you still care.

so i pretend you know what i am trying to tell you, and to be able to sleep well tonight.