breaking habit

i developed a habit not long ago. a habit that i love, and everyday i look forward to do it. i would push everything aside to give time to satisfy this habit of mine.

but not everything lasts. and after a while, this habit has become a burden, and it did not make me happy. i dreaded over this habit without realizing it. i have been trying to change but i am weak, i ended up doing it. sometimes it is enjoying, at other times, its just a disappointment.

and as time goes by, i decided to break this habit. it did not bring me any good. last time it gave me strength, the will to be able to take on the world. now it feels like sucking all my power of will, and then left alone to face the consequences. it burdens people to, people that i care.

up until now, i don't know what can replace this habit. maybe hanging out with friends, maybe a part time job, maybe self-meditations, maybe a nap.. God knows.

perhaps for the best, i should try to change and break this habit. i don't want to stay on the same spot, i never did. i don't want to regret.