dear heart

sitting in this darkly lit room at 3.41am i find myself having a hard time to sleep. with no one to talk to at this late hours, i logged out all accounts and silent my phone. as the world was sleeping quietly, i asked my heart how i am today.

i let out a big sigh, unintentionally. a sigh from the heart.

what is bothering you, little heart?

my heart responded,

"with things happening are you still happy? sure you have been doing great on the outside, but i am in pain just by looking at you.

why do you keep things to yourself? didn't you realize you are putting pressure on me as you push all your problems to me..? why don't you just share with someone else and feel relieved after telling them your problems. then i don't have to take the job of listening for you.

and when you are sad, why don't you just cry? with you holding back the tears, don't you know i am in deep pain? why being hypocrite?

why do you keep on abiding my way? i get hurt easily and you know you have to pay for the price of listening to me. stop following what i want and keep your sanity in check.

i pump blood throughout your body everyday without resting. i barely stop from doing my job and the last thing i wanted from you is the so-called problems you look for. do something beneficial rather than annoy me with your endless dramatic feelings, can you?"

wow.. heart complaining already. i should put aside everything for now, get some sleep and so that my heart can be at least in a relaxed state.

goodnight, world. hope to have a morning sunbath later =)